Exaclty a year ago,
my ex neighbour, my friend, my brother,
left us.

I shall copy a clipping from my previous blog.
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August 13, 2006.

You know what?
My ex-neighbours.
Jeremy & Ariel.
The twins.

They migrated to states at the end of last year.

Aunty Maisy called daddie when we were going back from
dinner at holland & she told us this fucking shit news.

Her husband,
Uncle Stefan,
was driving ariel & jeremy back from a friend's party.
& it ended like at 2 plus am in states,
and on the freeway,
some fucking drunk driver rammed into the passanger section of their
car.

JEREMY PASSED AWAY.
&
ARIEL IS IN THE FUCKING "ICU" NOW.

Fuck.
& i can't even be there!

When i was sick and lying in the hospital last time,
ariel used to sit next to me
and hold my hand and sing me nice songs.

When she was sick,
i used to go read stories to her.

BUT NOW IN HER DEEPEST TIME OF NEED,
I CANT FLY THERE TO BE WITH HER!

All the times we spent,
the 3 of us plus jie.
Sitting in the rooms,
playing board games,
talking,
laughing.

Its like a fucking shock can.

Dad didn't believe that jeremy died.
He was like so freaking shocked.
Mom started crying like hell.
& so did i.

ARIEL,
YOU MUST BE STRONG OKAY?
Remember how we studied for exams together ?
How we walked home last time?
How we shot pearls at each other & at my fishes and your dogs?
How we had so much fun jumping on each other's beds?
How when one night you whispered in my ears telling me you love me?
How when we decided to party with jie when you broke up with mark?
How when mom and dad brought us out all the time?
Wake up Ariel.
Everybody's waiting for you.
Please do.

JEREMY,
I MISS THE TIMES WE HAD.
When we swam together in your house.
When we slide down the pole in my house and you said your ass hurts.
When the 3 of us got into pure sciences at sec 2.
When you used to drink maple syrup just like that.
When you nibbled the crumbs of the cake my mommie bakes.
When you told Ariel to get a life when she told us she loves us.
When you told my dad to shave bald and he threw an egg at you and started a food fight.
Everything.
You're in heaven now Jeremy.
The next thing is to please watch over your sister.
Ariel.
Please do Jeremy.
& Jer,
I love you brother.
You were the closest i ever had as a brother.
I love you.
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i posted that last year.
& i still miss you jeremy.

I love you.

ariel's anniversary is in another 2 weeks. :(
she passed away after 2 weeks in icu :(

off to my club to study already!