Paint my love;

Because you'll find,
its a picture of a thousand sunsets.

I love sunsets.
I really do.

Why?
Because i think the colour combination is really good; almost perfect.
Sunsets always remind us that a new day is about to come.
& also that a day has just passed.

I like to stare at sunsets.
I like to watch them set slowly,
as the sky slowly turns from bright, to dark.

Sunsets reminds me that i have feelings,
that i am still human.

I don't like it when it rains.
Because the rain blocks the sunset
& i can't see the sunset.
Its like a piece of me taken away.

Sarah, remember how much the sunset means to me?
Do you do you?
Remember the time we finally caught the sunset together?
Nice right !?
Remember the time i couldn't see the sunset & i was sad for the
whole night?

Today it rained in the evening.
I couldn't see the sunset.
& it made me sad.

I was sad.

Today i went to sicc with nick & his mommie : D

They rock.
I love them : D

Nick & I did a lot of shit there & what not.
& we also talked about of things.

Our Franck Muller Watches.
Vivien.
Milan.
Paris.
Jobs.
Brent.
Il Divo.
Age of Empires.
Bowling.

Hahah these were some of the topics : D

Then it rained.
& i was sad.

& today, i finally realised something more important than money.
& i also realised, that money cannot buy anything.
Sardonically.


& i realised again,
that love to me, might just be a game.
i neeeed to go learn how to love properly first.
Cause maybe she was right.
I neeed to learn how to love,
before telling people i love them.

Nicole was right.
Janean was right.
Sarah was right.
Jill was right.
Beverly was right.
Vivien was right.

& i was wrong.

So yeah.


When i told Vivien i love her,
i didn't even knew if i meant it in the first place.
Maybe i don't even know what love is.

Because i realised love isn't all about putting her above money.
Because money is nothing.

So i'll go learn properly.



&&& yeah my head is pain now.
There's too many things thrusted at me in one day.
Too many.


God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things i can;
& the wisdom to know the difference.